Los Angeles' fires threaten to hamper the entertainment industry's recovery.
LA's share of film and TV jobs has declined, and some are thinking anew about leaving.
One producer and director said he felt he could improve his financial situation by leaving LA.
The fires tearing through Los Angeles are a new threat to an entertainment industry that has been trying to rebound from a studio spending slowdown and twin labor strikes.
"Survive till '25" was the mantra in Hollywood for much of 2024. Now, some in the entertainment industry are wondering whether they should stick around.
"If there's no longer a need to be in LA, the question arises: Do I stay here?" asked Adam Wood, a producer and director in North Hollywood. He said the shift during COVID to remote work had made it easier to build an entertainment career outside LA. Wood hasn't had to evacuate yet, but helped a friend leave and is monitoring conditions.
"I could improve my lot financially by not being here," he said. "LA is the spiritual home of the industry, but at the same time, it's not loving me back."
Like many in entertainment, Wood works on a freelance basis. While he feels tied to the entertainment mecca, he said he's also counting the days of work lost to the fire.
Producer and director Adam Wood.
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Productions and premieres have largely been paused
Stars, including Paris Hilton and Billy Crystal, have lost their homes in the tony Pacific Palisades neighborhood, which is favored for its proximity to the studios. Countless others have lost or fled their homes.
FilmLA, the city's film permitting office, issued a statement Thursday warning that permits in or near evacuation zones could be canceled, while new applications to film in or near these areas would be denied.
It previously said the LA County Fire Department ordered film permits to be revoked for the communities of Altadena, La Crescenta, La Canada/Flintridge, and Unincorporated Pasadena.
Hollywood was already hurting before the fires
Before the fires, the entertainment spending slowdown had already hit the industry's biggest market hard.
LA has also been hobbled by an exodus of productions and workers to other entertainment hubs in lower-cost places like Atlanta and Miami. Greater Los Angeles' share of US-produced TV and film projects declined from 23% in 2021 to 18% in 2023, according to FilmLA.
LA accounted for 22% of US film and TV jobs in August, down from 33% two years earlier, according to an analysis of Bureau of Labor Statistics figures by Patrick Adler and Taner Osman of Westwood Economics & Planning Associates.
Despite the downturn, producer Adam Fratto said he had been feeling pretty good about the state of the industry before the fires started.
"I was taking some projects out, and who knows if they're going to sell, but the fact that TV folks were open to pitches, that's good," he said. "Before a couple days ago, I felt a little upbeat about 2025."
While it's still early to say how far the destruction could spread, Fratto said he expected the fires to cause some people to reassess their commitment to the area and industry.
"I think there will be folks who just decide to take their chips off the table and do something else or relocate," he said.
Still, Adler, the economic researcher, said he doubted LA would lose its position at the top of the entertainment industry.
"In the likes of film, television, content creation, and video games, LA has been the place where major decisions have been made, where talented people collaborate, and where deals get done," he said. "This has remained true as the city has persevered through multiple earthquakes and riots, not to mention periodic industry downturns."
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Bravo fans received a surprise during season 3 of The Traitors when they spotted an oil painting of Andy Cohen hanging in the Scotland castle.
During the three-part premiere, which was released on Thursday, January 9, Chanel Ayan spotted the new addition to the wall, saying, “Is that Andy Cohen? Daddy! Oh my daddy.” The painting showed Cohen, 56, who is an executive producer on multiple Bravo shows, all smiles while decked out in regal attire.
The season got off to a memorable start when the contestants were offered the chance to bring Rob “Boston Rob” Mariano into the fold — but everyone passed. Despite Boston Rob, 49, being led off into the woods, he later returned with The Challenge‘s Wes Bergmann and Big Brother‘s Derrick Levasseur. The trio serves as a surprise, last-minute addition to season 3.
Peacock’s hit reality series brings together reality TV stars from various franchises as they compete in a mafia-style game for up to $250,000. In addition to Boston Rob, Wes and Derrick, the third season featured Wells Adams, Gabby Windey, Ciara Miller, Chrishell Stause, Jeremy Collins, Carolyn Wiger, Tony Vlachos, Bob the Drag Queen, Britney Haynes and Danielle Reyes.
Bob Harper, Dylan Efron, Lord Ivar Mountbatten, Sam Asghari and Nikki Bella made up the rest of the group.
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Before season 3 premiered, Chrishell, 43, sparked rumors of an onscreen feud when she shared a series of promotional photos in November 2024 of all her fellow contestants — except Sandoval, 42. The Selling Sunset star didn’t address the omission at the time, but she previously showed support for Sandoval’s ex-girlfriend Ariana Madix.
“Oh my gosh, do you see who it is?” Nikki, 41, asked Gabby, 34, who replied, “Is that Sandoval? I am not saying hi to him.” Nikki laughed at Gabby’s reaction, adding, “I know, right?”
According to Cumming, 59, viewers should expect plenty of surprises throughout the season. “It’s very twisty and very kind of pulling the rug from under everybody all the time,” he told TV Insider in July 2024. “It’s also got some lovely moments in it as well, in a way that we haven’t had before. It’s very different from the other two seasons — in a really good way.”
“It’s sort of part of the whole DNA of the show now,” Cumming told WWD of his show style earlier this month. “I feel like we’ve sort of subverted the form of reality TV a little bit. And so what I’m wearing is an element of each episode. We’ve kind of added another layer to the thing.”
He continued: “It was something so new and different to what I’d done before. It sort of reminded me of Clue or something. I love a board game, and I love the campiness and theatricality of those games. I could tell from the start they [the production company] wanted to kind of up the ante. It wasn’t just, ‘Hello, I’m Alan Cumming, and here I am with these people.’ They purposely wanted to match the tone of the show.”
New episodes of The Traitors are released Thursdays on Peacock at 9 p.m. ET with a three-episode premiere event.
After thousands of houses burned and many more people were evacuated from their homes from areas all over Los Angeles this week, Stone, 66, shared a post via her Instagram on Wednesday, January 8, calling for clothing donations.
Sharing a clip that shows distribution center The Coop on Beverly Boulevard, Los Angeles, Stone urged her followers to follow her lead in donating “gently used” clothing for “people who have been displaced and affected by the fires.” She added that those who have been affected are welcome to “shop” at The Coop for clothing.
Berry, 58, heeded the call and reposted the clip via her own Instagram account, announcing she would also pitch in with donations.
“I’m packing up my entire closet and heading over to the COOP! If you live in the Southern California area, I urge you to do the same,” the actress captioned the post. “This is something we can do right now today to help all of the displaced families that are in need of the basics today! Thank you @sharonstone for your leadership. Love you Lady ”
In response, Pfeiffer, 66, expressed her desire to donate, asking in the comments section, “Can I do tomorrow?”
Meanwhile, Stone appeared on NewsNation on Wednesday evening and shared further information about The Coop.
“My sister and another publicist friend of ours opened a store, worked together with a store on Beverly Boulevard,” she said. “It’s called The Coop, so, if you have gently used clothes, shoes, bedding, anything that these disenfranchised people may need, please come immediately to The Coop, starting tomorrow morning, and you can drop them off.”
She added, “If you need things, come to The Coop. This is for people who need any of these things, please come there. This is where you can get them, it’s a distribution center.”
Sharon Stone.(Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images)
Stone revealed she was also rolling up her sleeves to offer assistance in other ways, including opening her doors to displaced friends.
“I’ve been taking friends into my home. I have families coming now to move in with us. We’re setting up a place to be able to help people. We’re setting up beds and just room in the house,” Stone said. “We’re loading up trucks and taking everything we have over to The Coop, and we’re inviting our friends over to move in with us here. Lot of people are being evacuated.”
An estimated 9000 homes have been damaged or destroyed in the fires, according to officials, reported The Guardian. Since Tuesday, the fires have ravaged parts of the exclusive Pacific Palisades area, Malibu, Santa Monica and the Hollywood Hills. Celebrities including Billy Crystal, Mandy Moore and Paris Hilton are among those who lost their homes due to the fires.
Hollywood has also canceled a slew of events over the past few days including premieres for The Last Show Girl, Wolf Man and Jennifer Lopez’sUnstoppableand The Critics Choice awards, among others.
“He just, like, can’t handle any f—ing constructive criticism,” Austen, 37, said of Craig, 35, during the Thursday, January 9, episode, after the two butted heads one week prior.
Austen told mutual friend Shep Rose that after he accused Craig of never spending time with him outside of work — they launched their “Pillows & Beer” podcast in 2021 — and the gym, and Craig didn’t respond well.
“I’m going to lower the bar, I guess,” Austen confessed, noting he doesn’t want to be in a “s—y” place with his one-time best friend.
Amid their feud, Craig and then-girlfriend Paige DeSorbo found themselves hosting a backyard party for their friends, but Austen didn’t make the guest list. (The group was initially supposed to attend a birthday party for Taylor Ann Green, but she canceled it at the last minute.)
“He’s not extending the invite to me because I told him something he didn’t want to hear,” Austen told the cameras, calling Craig “a petty little bitch.”
Craig was equally as upset over his tension with Austen telling Rodrigo Reyes that Austen said he wasn’t a “good friend” which rubbed him the wrong way.
“I’m not going to chase you down and convince you to be my friend,” Craig said of Austen, confessing he’s “kinda growing out” of their ups and downs. (Austen, meanwhile, exclusively told Us Weekly in December 2024 that she wishes “Craig had more of a balance in his life,” calling him a “hermit.”)
Later in the episode, Craig expressed frustration to Madison LeCroy over Austen’s comments and revealed it’s spilling over to their podcast success.
“He came over here and basically knocked my hustle,” Craig claimed, adding, “I’m never going back to that guy that he misses.”
Paige — who confirmed her and Craig’s split in December 2024 — also slammed Austen for his alleged overreaction to Craig putting work and her before his friendship with Austen. “What grown man goes over to another grown man’s house crying that he misses them?” she quipped.
Craig Conover and Austen Kroll.Mike Marsland/Getty Images for Hayu
“I was dumbfounded. I was like, ‘We’re not dating.’ Like what are you talking about?” Craig said with a laugh.
Craig confessed that he thought the men were “good” and “on the same page” but once he learned that wasn’t the case, he pivoted. “I recorded the podcast by myself last night,” he told Madison, 34, explaining, “I like doing the podcast with him but not when he acts like this.”
“You and I, when we have disagreements and don’t understand each other we can take space because there’s nothing tying us together other than our friendship,” Craig told Shep, hinting that the podcast was becoming a big point of contention for him and Austen.
Craig noted that for him, a “solution” to the Austen problem would be “to take a step back from the podcast.” He said, “Then how you live your life won’t annoy me. Instead of forcing yourselves.”
When Shep commented that it must be “exhausting” to juggle his friendship with Austen and work together so closely, Craig confessed that the “chemistry” was no longer there.
“With the podcast, he wouldn’t show up or he’d be hungover. Just miserable,” Craig alleged, claiming that Austen “bitched about our podcast tour” and he “had to do everything.”
Craig confessed, “It’s supposed to be the most fun time of the week, and I started to dread it.”
Austen Kroll and Craig Conover.Gabe Ginsberg/Getty Images
The Sewing Down South founder explained that he treats the podcast “as a job” and does it “responsibly,” while Austen allegedly “treats it as a party.”
Craig added, “Maybe I’m outgrowing the arraignment we had before.”
In a preview for next week’s Southern Charm episode, Craig confronts Austen about their podcast issues. “How much would I have to give you to sign papers saying, ‘Craig owns Pillows & Beer now?’” Craig asks.
“We’re doing this?” Austen replies. “Wow.”
At the time this week’s episode aired, Austen and Craig were still cohosting the podcast and recently opened their By The Way restaurant in Charleston together.
Southern Charm airs on Bravo Thursdays at 8 p.m. ET.
Survivor hasn’t done a Faithfuls vs. Traitors theme yet, but this season of The Traitors could be an adequate substitute.
Four players from the long-running CBS hit reality show are battling it out on season 3 of The Traitors, including three former winners and a recent fan favorite.
Rob “Boston Rob” Mariano, Tony Vlachos, Jeremy Collins and Carolyn Wiger are all part of the cast, which features stars from around the competitive reality and Bravo universes.
One former Survivor player, Cirie Fields, has already won the game. She took home the $250,000 prize pot in season 1, out-dueling other reality favorites like Stephenie LaGrossa Kendrick (Survivor), Rachel Reilly (Big Brother) and Brandi Glanville (Real Housewives of Beverly Hills).
Survivor winners Parvati Shallow and Sandra Diaz-Twine both came up short in season 2, as Chris “CT” Tamburello and Trishelle Cannatella (The Challenge) shared the title.
This crop of Survivor alums on season 3 have a lot to live up to, but they also have a track record that inspires confidence. Keep scrolling for everything you need to know:
Jeremy Collins
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Jeremy made the most of his do-over on Survivor: Cambodia — Second Chance, returning to the game and winning just one year after his 10th-place finish in Survivor: San Juan del Sur. He was remembered that season for learning on the famed “loved ones” visit that his wife, Val, would be having a baby boy — a fact he did not reveal to his tribemates until the final Tribal Council.
He won the game unanimously and returned for season 40, Survivor: Winners at War, where he played with Boston Rob and eventual winner Tony. Jeremy placed eighth out of 20 contestants on the all-winners season, falling victim to a Tony blindside. At the final Tribal Council, he called out Tony for his betrayal and gave his vote to runner-up Natalie Anderson instead.
Outside of host Jeff Probst, perhaps no one is more closely associated with Survivor than Boston Rob. As a player on five seasons and a mentor on another, Rob won Survivor on his fourth go-around, Survivor: Redemption Island in 2011, before any other Survivor alumni from this season of The Traitors even got on the show for the first time.
His only experience playing with Tony and Jeremy came in Winners at War, but it was short-lived as he was voted out on day 14. He voted for Tony to win the game at the final Tribal Council.
Tony Vlachos
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One of only two players to ever win Survivor twice (Sandra is the other), Tony is widely regarded as one of the best players in Survivor history. On his first season, Survivor: Cagayan — Brawn vs. Brains vs. Beauty, he formed the now-legendary Cops-R-Us alliance with Sarah Lacina.
Known for his aggressive and sometimes reckless gameplay, Tony has been so successful on Survivor because of his strategic chops, ability to recover from his mistakes and his eavesdropping from his spy shack (or bunker, or nest).
The Traitors doesn’t necessarily lend itself to a secret eavesdropping location, but his power of observation should help him figure out the threats to his game.
Tony has compared himself to Boston Rob in the past, which could either make him an ally or an enemy in the castle. We will also have to see if he and Jeremy have patched things up.
Carolyn Wiger
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Carolyn is the only former Survivor player on The Traitors season 3 who has not competed with anybody else on the cast. She placed third on Survivor 44, quickly becoming a fan favorite thanks to her eccentric personality and moving story as an addict in recovery. As a player, she wore her emotions on her sleeve, which could either rub fellow competitors the wrong way in the castle or take her further as she may not be perceived as a threat.
On Survivor, Carolyn will also be remembered for her friendship with Carson Garrett, the season’s fourth-place finisher who is 15 years her junior. The two have remained close since then and now host a Survivor podcast together.
Jessica Alba is not only a successful actress but also a businesswoman thanks to her brand, The Honest Company — but her estranged husband, Cash Warren, has links to the brand as well.
Alba, 43, founded the personal care brand in 2011 which started off with a focus on baby products. The Honest Company launched the following year with 17 products that were initially sold on its website and in various Whole Foods and Costco locations. It later expanded into home care products.
In 2014, the brand was added to Target, Buy Buy Baby and Nordstrom shelves. As The Honest Company expanded, so did its profits. It was valued at $1 billion at the time.
Two years later, Forbes estimated Alba’s net worth was around $340 million due to the success of The Honest Company. However, Forbes retracted their report in 2021.
“Even at the high end of the pricing range, Alba’s 6% stake (including options) would only be worth just under $100 million,” the publication stated at the time. “That is far less than the $340 million Forbes estimated she was worth when we estimated her stake to be 20% and put her on our 2016 list of America’s most successful self-made women.”
That same year, The Honest Company officially filed for an initial public offering on the stock market. The business was valued around $1.4 billion at the time. According to an SEC filing in 2021, Alba’s salary for the following year was set at $700,000.
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After being behind the brand for more than a decade, Alba announced in April 2024 that she was stepping down as Chief Creative Officer. She remains on the Honest Company’s board of directors.
“Building Honest has been a true labor of love,” she wrote via Instagram at the time. “From the first concept book I pitched to my friends in Mommy and Me class, to ringing the bell at Nasdaq with my family by my side – this journey has been the ride of a lifetime, one that only existed in my wildest dreams…”
At the time of her exit, The Honest Company was valued at $363 million. According to a December 2024 SEC filing, Alba and Warren, 45, both have voting and investment power as trustees over the shares held by the Warren Trust.
Currently, the Honest Company is valued at around $609 million, significantly less than the $1.7 billion value it had at the time it went public.
News broke earlier this week that Alba and Warren called it quits after 16 years of marriage. TMZ reported on Wednesday, January 8, that the pair are preparing to file for divorce. Us Weekly reached out to reps for Alba and Warren for comment at the time.
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Britney Haynes and Danielle Reyes had a lot of history before stepping into The Traitors mansion.
Danielle cemented herself as a Big Brother legend after becoming the runner up on season 3 which aired in 2002. The real estate manager returned to the show four years later in its All-Stars season where she came in sixth place.
Britney, for her part, joined the CBS competition series for season 12 which premiered in 2010. While the real estate agent came in fourth place, she won the hearts of fans thanks to her witty commentary. She was voted America’s Favorite Player and was asked back for season 14 as a coach alongside season 7 winner Mike “Boogie” Malin and fellow Traitors alumsDan Gheesling and Janelle Pierzina. (Britney and Janelle also competed on The Amazing Race together as a team.)
While Danielle and Britney never played Big Brother’s traditional format together, they have been connected over the years as they formed a friendship as fellow alums. During the season 25 premiere in 2023, the women met for the first time when they made a cameo to break into the Big Brother house alongside Frankie Grande.
That same year, Britney and Danielle were reunited as they faced off on Big Brother’s holiday-themed competition show Reindeer Games. While the women were working together at first, Britney played a role in Danielle’s dramatic elimination. Danielle and Britney’s friendship has since turned into a feud following the betrayal.
While it’s been two years since the drama went down, the wound reopened when the women both joined the cast of The Traitors season 3. In a sneak peek of the January 9 premiere, fans got a brief glimpse into Britney and Danielle having an intense face-to-face chat about their past drama.
Keep scrolling for a complete breakdown on Danielle and Britney’s Big Brother history:
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Danielle’s ‘Big Brother’ Legacy
Throughout the history of Big Brother, Danielle has been dubbed the best player to never win the game. Danielle changed the course of the game following her devastating season 3 loss. She was best known for her strategic prowess and candid demeanor in the diary room. At the time, the jury returned home to watch the season unfold.
After seeing Danielle’s confessionals, a majority of the voted out players felt bitter over her remarks and ultimately voted against her. She received one vote from her loyal ally Jason Guy while Lisa Donahue took home the cash prize. Following season 3, Big Brother began sequestering their jury members.
Danielle returned for Big Brother’s first All-Stars season in 2006, and she was immediately targeted for being a strategic player. However, she aligned with Boogie, Dr. Will Kirby, James Rhine and Erika Landin. Danielle was evicted as the fourth member of the jury.
17 years later, Danielle came out of her Big Brother retirement to participate in Reindeer Games.
Britney’s ‘Big Brother’ Legacy
Like Danielle, Britney has appeared on two Big Brother seasons. Britney became a fan favorite during her first appearance in season 12. She was best known for her wisecracks and joking commentary. Her legacy has lived on with her iconic lines including, “I lost my dignity on a slippery wiener,” and “You’re a homosapien, Brendon. You’re not a wizard!”
Britney returned to Big Brother two seasons later as a coach where she played alongside Dan and Janelle. Britney became collateral damage following Dan’s legendary funeral move and voted out. She became the second member of the jury.
Britney then took an 11-year break from Big Brother before joining the Reindeer Games cast.
Danielle and Britney’s ‘Big Brother’ Cameo
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Britney, Danielle and Frankie appeared in the season 25 premiere, which aired in 2023, to introduce the season’s twist. In the bit, the trio broke into the Big Brother house to use a time laser so they could change their fate from their respective seasons. But in true Big Brother fashion, the trio’s plan backfired and they accidentally created the BB Multiverse twist for the incoming houseguests.
What Went Down on ‘Reindeer Games’
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After season 25 wrapped up, Britney and Danielle were reunited to compete in the holiday-themed competition series. As players from the older seasons, Britney and Danielle gravitated towards each other and wanted to form a women’s alliance. While the duo had the best of intentions for each other, an unfortunate instance in a competition fractured their dynamic.
In episode three, the remaining competitors were tasked with completing a puzzle during the Santa’s Showdown elimination challenge. It featured a knockout format as the first participant got five minutes and thirty seconds to finish the puzzle. If the puzzle was solved before time ran out, the player was safe. However, the next person would have significantly less time on the clock.
Nicole Franzel had won a challenge earlier in the day which gave her safety in the competition but she was tasked with picking who should go first. She ultimately chose Frankie who finished the puzzle quickly. Frankie subsequently chose Xavier Prather to go next. Despite struggling with the puzzle, Xavier completed the challenge with seconds to spare. The lawyer was convinced whoever went next would automatically go home.
Both Britney and Danielle begged their fellow competitors not to send them in as they knew they were not good at Big Brother challenges in the past. Xavier, who was secretly aligned with Danielle, decided to take a shot at Britney.
Britney went into the puzzle already thinking she would be sent home. However, she surprised herself — and the other players — when she was victorious with plenty of time to spare. After learning from Xavier that he was working with Danielle, Britney felt betrayed that she was not included in their deal. While Taylor Hale volunteered to go into the puzzle next, Britney decided to pick Danielle instead. Danielle went into the challenge and gave it her all. She lost by a few seconds, making her the third boot.
What Did Danielle Say After ‘Reindeer Games’?
After her exit, Danielle opened up about how hurt she was by Britney’s decision to send her in.
“She was my person. The person that I was wanting to go to the finals with was Britney,” Danielle said to Entertainment Weekly in December 2023. “And so when she put me in, it was very shocking. So I think that’s probably why I didn’t do so well in the comp, because I couldn’t get my head around that this friend of mine put me in this game knowing that I was not going to come back.”
Danielle explained that she had an “undying love” for Britney outside of the game and was hurt by the blindside.
“When I came out of the house, I just didn’t understand why she did what she did. And it was like I kept playing it in my head. I was like, ‘What happened?’ So yeah, that’s how I dealt with it,” she reflected. “I understand she did it for game purposes, and she said she had thoughts or feelings about me in the house, but again, my feelings were based on my relationship outside the game. So that’s where I stand with her decision making. Like I said, I was hurt. I was taken aback by it.”
What Did Britney Say After ‘Reindeer Games’?
Britney ended up coming in 5th place in the Reindeer Games. Following her elimination, she explained her thought process about why she decided to target Danielle.
“It was not always going to be Danielle. However, Danielle was on my radar as far as I did not trust that she was really working with me and the girls alliance as much as I thought she was working with that four-person alliance,” Britney said in a December 2023 interview with Entertainment Weekly. “I felt that they were much tighter, that they were a much more secure alliance. And as you can see, watching it back, it’s even more evident to me now than it even felt in the moment.”
Britney confessed that she thought Danielle was doing a “really good job socially” and didn’t think anyone else would choose to target her.
“We were both trying to do the same thing socially. And I saw if someone at some point could save me or Danielle, they’re going to save Danielle every single time,” she said. “And so as much as I wanted to work with her — and if I could have had the opportunity to shake a snow globe, Danielle would’ve been in my final four — seeing how well she was doing socially and seeing how we were playing a similar type game, I knew she would always be a preference for safety over me. Because I had started winning competitions and she had done the work socially.”
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